Last week, I hinted at me trying to experience all the emotions of motherhood and trying not to become numb to some. All of the feelings of Hazel’s pregnancy were coming back at me full force since it was her birth week. And one of the first feelings I had when I found out I was pregnant with her was guilt. I had JUST had a miscarriage. I got pregnant two weeks after I had a DNC. Of course I wanted to be pregnant again. I wanted a baby. But…I wanted the baby I had lost. I wanted…
Don’t you love a cozy sweatshirt and finding a favorite tee? If you live in the PNW or are from there ( I’m not, and still love these 😜), I’ve found some really fun designs for you! Rainy State Threads is a small shop (you know how I love small shops)! And living in comfortable, cozy clothes is my life right now. Most of you young mamas are probably in the same stage as me. You want to be put together, but you need to be comfortable and really don’t have that much time to put into your…
I figured since Hazel is three months old now (as of tomorrow), it’s time to tell her birth story! It’s taken me long enough! You may not be interested in reading it at all, but I always love reading stories about labor, especially when I’m pregnant! You can read Hallen’s birth story here.I had always told EVERYONE that her due date was February 17th even though the doctors went by a due date of the 27th. I said there was no way. I know my cycle like the back of my hand. With so much…
A Second ChanceJust writing the title of this post, tears stream down my cheeks. I remember the gut wrenching feeling of knowing that one of my children’s hearts had stopped beating who was supposed to be growing inside of me. It was Mother’s Day weekend 2016, and the ER doctor had just delivered us the news that even he didn’t want to say aloud. We lost our baby. He tried to give us hope by telling us maybe I was earlier along than I thought, but I knew there was no chance of that. We had…